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Toward a book project, “letter-poems to the beloved” – Week Four

…semester’s last week is now over…final essays and assignments, assessment and grading steps are still at my door, awaiting attention…therefore, I am leaving you with yet another poem of mine in lieu of my customary Sunday reflections and look forward in much anticipation to our next meeting. May this day and next week  bring you wonders you will experience with childlike curiosity-filled eyes.

 

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Photography Credit: Romeo Koitmae

 

no ether

 

does the record date back to the early eleventh century?

you would know, my love, we also shared our profession:

they would seize the patient in a prolonged procession

to the bloody altar slowly they would lower him down

in the agony of his existing pain he would partially drown

with a swift gash, his appendix, liver or one of the intestines

would reappear before everyone’s eyes in its carnage glory

 

can you see now, my beloved, how it had felt

not from your’s – the intact one…

but since my alive autopsied end?

 

© hülya n yılmaz – March 27, 2014

From the “letter-poems to the beloved” collection

 

 

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Toward a book project, “letter-poems to the beloved” – Week Three

…thank you for bearing with me the last two times and for the next two more times…while I only offer you my poems…I hope to return to my usual style of reflections, once my semester ends…just around the corner…As always before, I very much look forward to your next visit. May you have a laughter-filled Sunday and an identical new week.

 

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Photography Credit: Serhat Demiroğlu

 

still playing

 

i was to be removed

not for lack of love or means

for fear of that dreadful disease

 

had since my share of ravened joys macaw-donned ills

sets of chains of shackled years eternalized my fasting

trite servings heaped on my plate with no shame

a honeyed blessing it was that you came

 

dabbed from my mind any fear of intimacy

flavored each morsel on my tray to utmost ecstasy

kneaded for me passionate love into life’s bleak reality

 

just when

my lungs closed up to solely heed your affectionate breath

the scarlet chamber learned to refuse a beat without yours…

 

the moment came that made you leave me

 

i was to be removed

am now orphaned by a cruel bliss

patiently await the end to grant me its fawning kiss

 

© hülya n yılmaz – March 26, 2014

From the “letter-poems to the beloved” collection

 

 

 

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Toward a book project, “letter-poems to the beloved” – Week Two

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after

 

have you ever eaten *helva, my love

to the sizzle of the slowly melting butter

anxious in its wait to savor each flake of sugar

the scent of the browning flour in your breath

milk drops rapt in a dance of the delicate blend

yearning for the ultimate sweet feast?

 

have you ever eaten helva, my love

when sugar though was no longer to be found?

 

© hülya n yılmaz – March 26, 2014

From the “letter-poems to the beloved” collection

 [*With “helva,” I refer here to the Turkish dessert, “un helvası” (flour halwa).]

 

 

 

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Toward a book project, “letter-poems to the beloved” – Week One

Good Sunday, dear reader!

You know my predicament: I am passionate about writing but I also love teaching. Beyond loving my decades-long professional commitment, I am having to allocate most of my time to its demands. The new semester is coming to a fast end but in an immensely time-consuming manner. I find it more and more difficult in this final month to reserve their deserved time aside for my Sunday reflections – to do any qualitative research on some issues of larger interest to us all, that is. I hope you won’t mind terribly, if I were to share with you one of my new poems for the end of each of the next few weeks. What I would very much appreciate from you is, any few minutes you may be able to set aside to comment on each poetic construct. If that were to be too much to ask, then, perhaps you would be willing to suggest a title for a larger writing project I have in mind in which to collect all these poems. In case you have an active account on facebook, some of them will appear familiar to you, as I have posted them on my page and/or timeline on that platform. What I have conceived so far for the project in question is in line with my core existential determinant – as I articulated it in my debut book:

“Love and melancholy. Two traits that defined me throughout my life thus far. Not very different from Oğuz Ozdeş’ Hülya – the young woman whose tragic love captivated my mother to the extent that she adopted her name for me. As I have said before, I have a commitment to love. When it comes to melancholy, I am considering a healing interaction with it – an initiative I have already prompted with my poems for Trance. I do intend to accomplish a continued healing, though. To begin to achieve such endeavor, I may have to write a different ending to Hülya but to hülya as well. And, I believe I will (from: Preface, Trance, a collection of poems in English, German and Turkish).”

I very much look forward to your comment and your next visit. May the rest of your day and new week be filled with joyous events and interactions.

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do you think back

to remember it all

how i lain on the mossy ground

blanketed myself with your scent

the quiet creek of our first encounter

encircling the rays of an afternoon sun

how it slowed its path to honor our euphoric reunion

to watch us flow into one another – learned and approved…

wind and air however envied pulled their forces together

thus came an end in a lightning – fiercely brash

 

my graceful i kept at bay its dire hope to let you float

what ifs of our dread are adamant in haunting me yet

would i have now been immersed by you instead

had i not defied the boulder at the barricade…

 

i was meant to love you

and i still do

 

© hülya n yılmaz – March 14, 2014

 

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“on a pedestal, no more – a poem trilogy”

Dear Readers:

Today, I am sharing with you my poem trilogy that was published in The Year of the Poet, a book by Inner Child Press where I was a featured poet this month – carrying such honor together with a fellow author.  In their imagery, these poems deviate significantly from the majority of my previous lyrical compositions.  I hope you will find their invitations to uncover my intended audience at least somewhat of enigmatic quality.

May the rest of your Sunday and new week a delightful one! As always, I look forward to your next visit.

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the impotent puppeteer

 

not an inner beauty nor on the outside

unlike the tender roots where it sprouted

“a bad seed,” voiced only the wise

 

oh Medusa, how hath thou cloned thyself?

when hath thou destroyed

where hath thou buried

other Gorgons of Ceto

of Phorcys?

 

why, the choice to rejoice each dawning day

in the unsuspecting for their ills?

oh, how they added to thy antediluvian thrills!

 

he was no Perseus

naive

trusting

spell-stricken

blind

 

oh Medusa, how thou…

with one of thy latest winding tresses

chanted from the chest of a confidante’s conniving hisses

secreted his sole devotee the ultimate scarlet sentence

slithering in and out of her…

suffocated their blood from its essence

 

he was no Perseus

naive

trusting

spell-stricken

blind

 

a head, nevertheless, dons Athena’s shield today

a Gorgoneion,?  Not in the least.  Oh, nay!

 

Perseus, thy beloved mother knew its lethal envy for long

as hath thy father, the half-outcast, who did not belong

 

thy sister does at last

 

 

the well-meaning chauvinist

 

Hippolyte Cogniard and his brother The`odore

may be tempted to produce anew

their La cocarde tricolore

in 1839, after all, already

its roots penetrated the First French army

although Nicholas Chauvin – an apocryphal fighter

did probably spend not much time to ponder

what was to become of his exaggerated affection

for it to surpass time, space to infect grave degeneration

an innocent male of today owes him the concept’s doomed derivation:

 

a woman is obliged to appear pretty

full facial paint, short skirts, high heels are a must

men-attracting smiles should be frequent and a plenty

hair to be of buoyant design, unrehearsed – as on an odalisque bust

 

her beauty came from nature

its enticing aura lacked pretense

feminine from head to toe – with legs or without

she smiled – at her will and for herself

burst alluring laughters – when she desired

 

marriage also found her

inside a circle of cages

a mere twenty-four year-old…

 

the distorted-Chauvin-coveting one spoke:

what is it you expect?

where is your alternative?

who would accept you in his life?

 

years later, in rapid aging, he found love

dissolved swiftly his first marital union

wedded a woman less than half his age

 

on the other side of the globe

fences wore away

day by day

the twenty-four year old…

 

 

the learned ignorant

 

in a family of futile males

he reaped one day their parched tree’s single crop

none would dare to conceive the challenge to stop

his edification cured the lost honor of their patriarch

 

heading clans of men from many domineering generations

he bestowed upon the wives identical dispensations

for they birthed equally wasted boy-children

of fetal eminence

 

ages passed

indistinctive women attained nobility

as have the sons, their wives, the in-lawed ovaries

their descendants are donned with unrivaled extravagance

 

the sole daughter has been erased away

along with her nonmale offspring

 

a pre-natal larnyx had not been contracted to their matriarch…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Once upon a winter…

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 I have taken this photograph (of the friendly seagulls) in Chestertown, Maryland a few years back during my high-winter visit to the Great Oak Manor Inn.  As for the poem below, I wrote it under the spell of my entire experience there.

hours of road monotony

the GPS – self-imposed dictatorship

tired, bored, no more beauty in the snow

then…

a private gateway,

a much anticipated spectacle:

The Inn.

A compelling magnificence.

No need for a color, shade, or a hue;

a winter embrace of splendor;

the smolder of her fireplace…

 

I feel  home.

 

Spacious beyond the eye’s territory,

not at all an inn of limits;  

high-risers’ luxury at hand;

many may deem impersonal,

out of futile habit: This, a B&B?

 

I feel home.

 

Eloquent, the host – the hostess, of elegance.

The puppy acts like one yet outsizes me.

Struck by grave illness, the eldest feline

each night in my Victorian space.

She, too, will break hearts, never to replace the pieces.

Just like my Russian Blue, Duman.


A mere three days’ span…

listening

inhaling

seeing

the authentic self

outside its tested and testing

fragmented, fragmenting

judged, judging

rushed, rushing

shell-self.

 

I am home.

 

 

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…my “Elegy – 3” among featured poems…

Dear Readers:

I am very excited to share with you a news from LauraSue Gutierrez, World Healing World Peace Poetry Contest 2012 Winner and the poetry editor of Inner Child Magazine about four poems she featured in this month of September.  My “Elegy – 3” has found a new home among three wonderful poems.  When you get a chance, please check out the beautiful site created and maintained by Ms. Gutierrez, her heartfelt and insightful interpretations of the featured poems.

May the rest of your week bring you all that you wish for yourselves.

Peace in love.

 

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A memorable international charity anthology and my two-poem contribution

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Amazon Kindle Edition

Barnes and Noble Nook Book

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For Paperback –

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All proceeds are donated to the May Tornadoes Relief Fund,

administered by the United Way.

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Poem 4 for the Helping Tornado Victims in Oklahoma project by INDIES IN ACTION

to taste life

 

Drawn to unknowns,

grim prospects,

doubts,

loss of hopes,

ills.

Black and white.

 

Grief leaves.

Grey appears

amid a mottled bouquet

donned in scents galore

in the arms of human laughter.

Joy overcomes sorrow.

 

© hülya yılmaz, May 31, 2013

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elation – to be published by Indies In Action in the Twist of Fate Anthology

bursting balloons wrapped in rainbow

carry the darkness up and away

splashes of refreshed, vivid colors

force the thunder clouds astray

 

arms wide extended, prancing to and from

myriads of rejoined, bracing town squares

shadows packed, locked, sent missing

more destruction, the storm no longer dares

 

frolicking wills move in instead

afar, nearby, nearing, or there

honed by the warmest, keenest of hearts

to soar over you, with utmost care.

Your new lives will not be bare.

 

© hülya yılmaz, June 1, 2013

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