taking loved ones for granted . . .
my beloved said these words this morning
as a response to my unease with my self
about matters pressing hard on my psyche
he was not judging,
only listening through his heart
reason joined in on our soulful exchange
my dis-ease of the self in many of its aspects
had to come out and speak up,
for the dissatisfaction i have been having
with my wholesome embrace of my loved ones
had become severe, so severe that i knew
deep inside something had to change
a serious improvement was long overdue
my love is immense, it has been always,
but not so my actual actions
so, as i am examining my spirit at its core
i am jotting down these random lines
to have my contemplations, reflections,
emotions, thoughts, potentials,
capabilities, abilities and potential for a
higher consciousness chime in anew,
and i realize how much more there is
that i am ready and willing to do,
to say, to feel, to show, to reassure
and to confirm where my love is due
a self-examination of one’s own awareness
about life’s truly-mattering matters
is what i now find myself do
and this realization
arrived at my doorstep
not a moment too soon
(c) hülya n. yılmaz, February 15, 2019
