Telepoem Booth in State College, PA ~ The First Year’s Collection ~ My Two Poems

“Congratulations!”

What do you think of incoming correspondences that start with this lovely C-word?

Over the years, I have received my share of the other kind: “We are sorry to inform you […]“. I don’t know about you but I most prefer the option on top…

To my delight, an email came into sight this past Wednesday with that C-word preceding its opening paragraph: “Five reviewers have sifted through 327 poems from 86 poets and would like to include the following poems that you submitted in the Telepoem Booth Collection.” The letter was from The Telepoem Booth Committee (I have tagged the name of each member). Assuming that I won’t miss the deadline to provide the committee with the recordings of my poems, they will be in the first year’s Telepoem Booth Collection. (Each contributing poet is offered professional readers but I am going to try it with my own voice first.) “The one in State College, location to be determined, will be the second in the nation (Telepoem Booth to Bring Poetry to Downtown State College)”.

My two poems below are the ones to be included in the State College Telepoem Booth Collection. They may seem familiar to you as I have posted them here before. Both have also appeared in The Year of the Poet, a monthly publication by Inner Child Press, Ltd. with the same titles: “Euterpe” and “inkpots” – which are, in my case, no formal titles but rather the initial verse):

Euterpe

i beg of you hear my plea
shield the natal passion
the first resolve to forget
the quest for the new breath
the now
the here

inspire
my desire
to define
the divine

rid me of yesteryear
free me from the self
watch my soul reject its cage
sate my shadow’s final plea
let it soar in its primal roar
see its essence prance in trance

help me shape the freshened day

~~~

© hülya n. yılmaz, March 20, 2015

inkpots

used to uncover the fading word

a second or more to gather the instant

to reminisce to reflect to feel to sense

to touch to hold the new breath

exhaling life at its worst

inhaling poetry

pre-natal

willed

pure

to surpass it all again and again

~~~

© hülya n. yılmaz, March 20, 2015

Related Links:
Telepoem Booth State College on Facebook
Philipsburg Journal

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[My pre-January 2017 mid-week posts – “Eternalist Notions”, all of which had a set of three dots as their titles are still in my blog’s menu but under a new name: “Impulses”.]

With a new semester just having begun, I heard my own voice once again last week repeating sections of my course syllabi regarding the importance of regular and timely attendance and active and qualitative participation in a foreign language class. And, just like numerous times before (more frequently so in the last several years) my mental energy took off; namely, in the direction of this concept’s significance outside the classroom (back in my office – not in front of my students):

Could I even remember anymore what participating actively and qualitatively in occurrences outside my areas of responsibility meant? 

How often, to what extent and in what quality was I actually participating in life? In my own, that is.

(Perhaps, to be continued.) 

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After a month-long absence . . .

I am here again (and happy to see you haven’t left me).

Before 2017 became a reality, I had already made several changes of various nature. At home, in my work space, my mindset, and my blog site’s layout, appearance, and so on. As for my post today, the image below is not “it. Listen on, if you so choose: 

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And then she said I am taking time off…

to attend to the needs of self while accommodating those of the family.

Hoping to be back at my writing desk in the new year, I wish you all, dear reader- and-writer-comrades the best for now and beyond. ~ hülya n. yılmaz

 

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Ve o sonra dedi ki: Bir süreliğine buradan ayrılıyorum…ailemin ihtiyaçları ile ilgilenirken kendi ihtiyaçlarıma da eğilebilmek üzere.

Yeni yılda yazı masama geri dönmüş olmayı ümit ediyorum. Bu ayrılığımın süreci içerisinde, sevgili okur- yazar yoldaşlarım, hepinize bugün ve ötesi için iyilikler dilerim. ~ hülya n. yılmaz

[Resimdeki tahta salıncağa kazılmış yazı: “Uçabileceğime inanıyorum.”]

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. . .

prenatally flawed
compassion-less mothers milk
nothing to unlearn

© hülya n. yılmaz, 12.1.2016

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Once upon a time, there was a five-same sized-car-wide parking space…

let us say the allowed space is five-same sized-car-wide

no-brainer right
each parallels the other and stays inside the lines

the first driver though takes up one-and-a half parking slot
the second stretches over the next one-and-a half
now feeling also fully entitled
the third cuts corners for the fourth
angry at the time’s poor timing
the fourth settles for the last stall

but wait
didn’t we just say
the allowed space is
five-same sized-car-wide

no-brainer you said

is it

© hülya n. yılmaz, 11.29.2016

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“Ben seni ölene dek seveceğim” boş laf.
Ben seni sevdikçe ölmeyeceğim. ~ Can Yücel

“I’ll love you until I die”.
Empty talk!
I won’t die while I am loving you.

~ Own translation from the Turkish original

 

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…what happens in-between…

we are born alone to die alone
the self is either warmed up in-between
or under a lonesome cold

only the corpses get stiff i thought
not so when emotional touch is no more

© hülya n. yılmaz, 11.8.2016

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[Own photograph; at Light on the Lake Bed and Breakfast, North East, PA]

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[Photograph: My own, during a dreamy weekend stay at Finton’s Landing]

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On Turkish Roads to the Legitimation of Child Rape: Remembering Nazım as a Form of Escapism

Turkey: Thousands protest against proposed child sex law

The news was impossible to disregard. Regarded it, I have. Writing my reaction to it in nonfiction, however, was far too disturbing of a thought for me – an older woman, born into and raised in a modernized Turkey before leaving for the now similarly tainted United States in pursuit of an advanced academic career decades ago. So: I have resorted to poetry…yet once again.

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My poem below first appeared here on October 19, 2014 in Turkish – the language in which I had initially conceived it, translating it to English shortly after. The photograph above of Nazım Hikmet, known as Nazım Hikmet Ran as well (1902-1963) had donned this page also back then. I am re-posting the poem in question with minor changes in their original articulations. This world-renowned exilic poet of Turkey had in persistence written – among numerous other humanity-related wrongdoings – on the objectionable status of Turkish women in their country of birth at large. I recognized Nazım’s deep-rooted concern inside me all over again in the face of the latest uproar in Istanbul, and so I reached for the prophetic conclusions he had drawn in his poem, “Kadınlarımız” (the italicized sections represent my direct quotes from Nazım).

Nazım Hikmet’i hatırlıyorum…

nasıl da iyi tanımış yurdun acı gerçeklerini
kadınımızdan biteviye esirgenenleri
ister olsun tek bir başına ister kocasının yanında
olsun varsın bir bebesi, o verici böğrünün öz yuvasında

ince, küçük çeneleri, kocaman gözleriyle
anamız, avradımız, yarimiz kadınlar
ama anaya yakışan saygıyı
analıklarında bile göremeyen analar
soframızdaki yeri öküzümüzden sonra gelen

doğurmasa, erkeğinin asla göze alamayacağı bir fedakarlıkla
hayatın yegane masumiyet hazinesini ona hediyeleyen
herkes ana oluyorları kendine defalarca yediren
gene de yüzlerinden tebessüm nadiren eksilen
aynı yorgun alışkanlık çemberine
mahkum edilen kadınımız

Nazım Hikmet’i hatırlıyorum…

nasıl da iyi tanımış senle beni,
onu şunu bunu
bizi sizi onları

bilmiş çok öncesinden bugünü geçmişi ve de geleceği
‘avradını, yarini’ analıklarında bile hiçe saymaya
ant içmiş erkeklerimizin tek toplar damarlı aile sofrasına
katmış cömert bir asaletle bu dahi destanına…

I am thinking of Nazım Hikmet…

How transparent our country of birth was to him
How deprived of life our women are
Whether single or decorating their husbands
With their babies cradled inside their selfless breasts

Our women with their fine, small chins and huge eyes;
Women that are our mothers, wives, lovers
But the kind of mothers
Who are robbed of motherly respect
Even in their motherhood

Our women who are forsaken
During meals for the sake of our oxen
Women who gift their men
Life’s ultimate treasure
A breath of innocence or more
If it weren’t for them
Whose men would never dare to undergo
The same great sacrifices of the self

Women who must tolerate
Their men’s oft-shouted ridicule:
Everyone can be a mother.
You are nothing special.

Women who nevertheless
Try not to neglect a smile from the face
Who are chained to the deadening same old tired rut

I am thinking of Nazım Hikmet…

How well he knew you me her us them
The present the past the future
Of his never-forgotten home
Of its single-veined patronizers

He knew it so well
That with his chivalric saga
He welded our women’s one-legged stools
Atop the food table of their men who seem to have sworn
To belittle their wives, their lovers even in their maternity divine…

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