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October 27, 2024 · 7:00 am

“Hataların Bedeli”, a poem in Turkish

Hataların bedeli . . .
ağır mı ağır
can tokatlayıp duruyor kendisini

anne yadigarı . . .
baba yadigarı . . .
her biri yitti gitti

kalmayacak tek evladıma
elle tutulur bir hatıra

herkes gibi ben de yaptım birçok hata
fakat o ikisi yok mu,
şu ilerlemiş yaşımda vurdu beni diplerin en derinine

kalbimin tutağı paramparça
koymuştum onu ellerimin yerine

çıkabilirim içinden sandığım çıkmaz
dolandı kaldı nefes borumda

olmaz benden artık herhangi bir paha
bu geç mi geç saatten sonra!

resentment, past and present

thirty-two years

he has been married to her

half a year after her only love – his words

longer united than – but

he has had it with her, he now concludes

nerved, edgy, even offensive

can’t and won’t stay with his son and his wife

few blocks down

the family he financed throughout their lives

wants to be on his own

with me, in the heat of my life struggle

after decades are gone

continents away

impossible

too much resentment

if for nothing else…