“Where Are You Now?”

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[Nâzım Hikmet ~ Free Online Image]

i miss the untainted i inside you
you caressed my birth
into your bosom
i laid down my many beloveds
my mother’s unforgettable touch
my father’s sacrificial feel
my uncles’ pain-soothing embraces
my granddaddy’s gentlest laughter
my Yasemin’s exceptional beauty
are for me no more
you have taken them all
for my brother
whom i utterly adore
i live no more

you have changed from the core

so many famed traversed through your terrains
they left their bountiful legacy with you
i now understand as to why
Nâzım Hikmet would cry
in his prison cell for too long of a while
even your enviable age-old landscape
of his countless sleepless nights’ saving grace
is recognizable no more

you have changed from the core

today
i feel
as if
i grew up
in a fairy tale

“Once upon a time”
you were to me
a mesmerizing spell
everything in between
had also its magical charm
“And they lived happily ever after”
however
oh my sweet Turkey
has been nothing but a pathetic lie

in your case . . .

i cannot help but still be
after a desperate chase
to honor my memories of you
al
though

you have changed from the core

© hülya n. yılmaz, 10.13.2018

 

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4 responses to ““Where Are You Now?”

  1. Jean-Jacques

    Beautiful, and with your increasingly recognizable poetic style, your tale can but stay with us to emphasize the inevitable and eventual outcome of that too short life of ours and more sadly so that of our loved ones. Thank you Hülya for sharing this most touching story.

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    • And I thank you, dear Jean-Jacques, for your generously kind comment about my poetic style. I have been noticing how it took a life of its own . . . to my content. As you well know, a response like yours is a true gift to a writer; especially, to hear that one’s “story” was “most touching” to the ears of another writer. Thank you!

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